I've not been writing on here (I have taken a long break,, too long- been dealing with a lot though)....
I got stuck between wanting to write and thinking that I am going to make people mad & hurt some people. Lots of people are going to call me a liar, but no one was behind the closed doors with me. I lived one life in public, and lead a totally different life in private.
I lived that way for the next 11 years. But, I've come realize that I can't be scared of what people are going to think of this next part of my life's journey,, lot of it is sad, a lot of it is bad and there is so much regret. I'm ready to clear my conscious and start walking with my head high. It's 3 am,, couldn't sleep. I never sleep anymore. I'm going to use a lot of anonymous names instead of real names,, but those who read this should know who I am referring to.
I am ready to be free of Jack Jr. Free from people saying things about me,, still thinking I am the person I was when I was with him. Mostly, I am so so tired of being the girl who got shot by her crazy husband and still to this day,, living under his shadow.
Bare with me,, this part is going to be long and very detailed.
Here it goes,, here comes the truth.
You have been through alot I know I was around back then. Glad you are still here and I does take courage to talk about things that happened You are doing a good thing
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