Into the end....

As I snorted up that pink glassy stuff, I thought my nose was going to burn off my face. I remember everyone there thought it was hilarious to see this 18 year old, lean up from that mirror and say oh GD. I immediately got the nickname Hoover. I guess they thought I was lying about all of my experiences with cocaine back in Florida. I didn't do anymore that night... But over the next few months of 98,, I dabbled more and more.
Jack would want to get high, so I'd be like heck yea, lets do it. I so just wanted to see him happy and he was the happiest when he was high. New Years Eve that year was GREAT!! Biggest party we'd ever had. We'd sneak to the bathroom and do a line or two and then back to the party we went. Many memories from that night.
We really didn't fight to much back in the first months of our relationship... oh but the fights were to come. (and over lil shit, like dishes or food) It was around February of 99 that we were living in Union City. We were in Jackson every chance we'd get, partying and just having the time of our lives (so I thought). I met so many people. Jack seemed to know everyone, and he was so protective (OBSESSIVE) of me. If we were out in public, I constantly had to be within eye sight. I had to be seen but not heard. All of which I thought was perfectly normal. (with growing up the way I did,, that was normal to me) Around July of 99, Jack and I went up to happy chandlers to look at the lake. We went on odd drives often... That was the first time I went skinny dipping , and we had sex while in the water. Little did I know, I would end up pregnant.  I was a stupid teenager. Blindly in love and willing to do anything to make our relationship work.
I didn't start my period in August, and I went straight to the Agape house one day while Jack was sleeping. Sure enough I was pregnant. I was 19. I went to the apartment and woke him up and he took me to the store, where we bought 6 more pregnancy tests and sure enough, they all came back as positive. So I made a Dr.'s appt. The first time I heard the heart beat it changed my world. No longer did my life revolve around Jack, but instead it revolved around this little creature growing inside of me. That made Jack so mad, he was so jealous of the baby that wasn't even here yet. About 3 months into the pregnancy, Jack and I started fighting so bad. He would get mad and push me. He'd get angry and hit me in the belly. At one point he pushed me down the stairs, I went straight to the er. The heartbeat remained strong. He was so jealous. I should've seen what was coming, but I was blind....