My dad was an alcoholic, he was abusive (mentally & physically), I always thought that was normal... Drinking and doing bad things...
My mom got fed up with my dad when I was around 14 or so,, So I started watching my little brother all the time while she was out partying.... I remember her sitting in her SUV with a bucket propped up on her steering wheel, puking her guts up. At one point she just gave up on everything, got tired of helping people and decided to live for herself....
Faithfulness isn't something that my family held dear. Marriage was not sacred to my mom and dad (pretty sad, knowing that mommy and daddy aren't happy)... (great thing to teach kids)
Abuse is something that my mom grew to accept.... Which taught me, that its ok to put up with abuse and neglect.
My family isn't very supportive (extended and close),,, If they can, they will talk bad about you.... (that is why I've stayed away from most of them)
A lot of my family is just plan nuts.... Yes, I am not completely sane, but DAYUM.
We all have problems, but I've got some big hypocrites in my family.... Not gonna drop a name,,, but she doesn't live around here and she's the largest hypocrite I'VE met....
I was a pretty sad kid/teenager.... Confused, lost, & neglected feeling..... That's why I did the things I did.... To get attention.... And even that didn't work....
I've hurt people, some purposefully to just see if I could do it... which is sad....
I have desperately looked for someone to make me think that life could be better,,,
BUT I'VE COME TO REALIZE LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT,,, DON'T LET YOUR PAST DEFINE YOU... LEARN FROM IT.... DON'T REPEAT THE PAST!!!
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